Nothing special, no celebrations.
No memories of good times or bad.
No associations in my mind.
Today, is just another day.
No reason why I don’t feel so good.
No reason why my eyes sting with unshed tears.
No reason why I feel exhausted.
My thoughts are scattered, lacking focus.
Concentration, motivation, gone.
Adrift in a sea of apathy.
Today is just another day.
Today is Friday, March 2nd. It is just another day.
And that’s the problem with depression…
…there isn’t always a reason why today isn’t a good day.
…why today it’s so difficult to function.
There isn’t always a trigger or a cause for the feelings.
There isn’t a reason behind the tears.
You feel overwhelmed but you don’t know why.
Irritated by things that would not normally matter.
And tired, so very tired…
tired that days like these come from nowhere,
tired of people, noise, bother.
Tired of being ill.
Tired of feeling there’s no sun on the horizon…
…that there’s no blue sky behind the clouds…
…that this will last forever.