This morning I’ve been thinking, my mental cogs whirring away as I sit in my lounge with the warm spring sunshine streaming through the window. I was thinking about the benefits of blogging, of becoming a writer and a poet. Today is my 88th day of BlueSkyDays356, and already I have shared so much of my mental health history, my running achievements and injuries, my emergency hospital stay, my journaling, and my self-care goals.
And I have written poetry. I have published 58 poems and have a few more which are near completion. I had never written poetry before, it is a complete revelation to me that I can do it, and even stranger that I am able to maintain momentum in writing.
The WordPress community is fabulous, the sense of belonging and supportiveness of other writers is amazing. I have had people view my writing from 45 different countries and I appreciate every single person who takes the time to read my work. I am approaching 3,000 views and 1,500 likes, I am astounded by the worldwide reach of my blog. I am blown away by all the positive comments and appreciation of my writing.
So, in part, this post is to you, my readers… thank you.
When I first started BlueSkyDays, my intention was to raise awareness of the reality of living with mental illness and to document my attempt at running (anticipating I would be a failure at it!). Over time this has evolved to encompass so much more and my writing has become more relaxed, more homely and less ‘educational’. I found writing poetry was initially destabilising as it triggered difficult emotions which I was expertly keeping buried deep within my mental dungeon, but now I find it therapeutic.
My creative brain has been unleashed!
In writing about my emotions, trauma and therapy, I have achieved a greater acceptance and understanding of my depression and PTSD. Writing has also become therapeutic. I don’t know whether the uplift in mood will be sustained, but right now I feel more positive, motivated and enthusiastic about my life and my recovery.
I can emphatically state that my little blog, BlueSkyDays365, is beneficial to my self-esteem, confidence, and self-awareness and has improved my ability to manage stress and cope with the difficulties in life.