Good evening, it’s 7.30pm here in the UK and I am only just settling down to writing. I am very keen to get back to my term-time routine now the boys are back in school following their Easter break. I enjoy having time and space to myself, not having to think about their needs, being able to do what I like, when I like. I am not selfish, I simply make the most of my time when there are no other demands being placed upon me.
However, my return to normality is being thwarted by appointments and meetings, by having to pick up from school in the middle of the day and then drop back at school, by tradesmen, deliveries… it seems that every possible interruption has worked its way into my schedule over the next two weeks. Meaning I feel pressured, not stressed or overwhelmed, but busier than I want to be, and with less time for me.
Less time for blogging, writing poetry, piano practice, knitting, gardening, running, swimming. Less time for planning and preparing healthy meals. Less time to do all the things that keep me emotionally settled, maintain my well-being and prevent my mood from falling.
I feel that I have so much to catch up on following the school holiday but that I won’t have time to catch up on anything over the next two weeks either. My mind is unfocused, there is too much to consider and organise, too much to remember. Mentally I flit from appointment to appointment, from day to day, trying to formulate a plan, a schedule, work out timings, but feel I am getting nowhere.
I am conscious that this is an unusual post from me, not really a sunshiney positive blue sky kind of thing but my head is full of too much stuff right now.
I’m ok, just offloading!
Thanks for listening.