Ever since my cancer diagnosis three and a half years ago, I have struggled with sleep. This has improved over time but I still wake regularly during the night and early morning, meaning I almost always feel tired when I get up. But this is something that I’ve learnt to live with and to work with.
Waking and getting up early allows me some time to mentally get ready for the day before the rest of the household get up. Being a parent to teenagers with additional needs is hard work, especially because there is no break from parenting. They look to me for approval and consent for pretty much everything, it can feel suffocating, it drains my energy and affects my mood. Some days I am more resilient than others and can get through the day with my peace of mind intact, on other days I feel stressed, trapped, hopeless and often tearful. But this post isn’t about my boys or my mood specifically.
Despite my disrupted sleep and inevitable tiredness, I enjoy having a little bit of me time at the start of the day. I may use this time to write (like now), go for a run while it’s quiet, or just plan for the day ahead. My husband has said that he quite enjoys his drive to work in the mornings for similar reasons. I think we all need to start the day with peace in mind, and in our environment.
My prompt for today is ‘peace’.
As the World Wakes
I wake early morning and rise with the sun
While the world outside sleeps on
Peaceful, calm stillness surrounding me
A haven set aside
From the hustle and bustle of life being lived
Commotion in motion, a whirlwind
Spinning and lifting me
Away from my haven of peace
As the world wakes around me
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