My life is in an odd place right now.
There are extremes of joy and sadness, clouds and blue skies, and it can be hard to manage the conflict at times.
Cancer is about to take someone from me, my family, and his community, friends, and neighbours. I hate the way cancer destroys lives. I hate that for all the treatment we can endure there can never be a cure. It destroys me to see this happening to family, to friends, acquaintances. To hear about it in news bulletins, television programs. I want earlier detection and better treatments. I want a cure.
I want a world without cancer.
As we become older we’re more exposed to this. Suddenly there isn’t a world of safety, there isn’t a future to be certain of, there’s just time. Time to make the most of our lives as they are at this very moment. Time to tell people they are loved and to forgive past mistakes. Time to forgive yourself for your own mistakes. Time to know that right now being there for each other is all that matters.
The future is in our hands to shape how we want to but some obstacles are greater than our determination to succeed. We can only influence what we have control over, the rest is down to fate, to biology, to circumstance.
Being in the wrong place at the wrong time.
We can live our lives in the most healthy way possible but still have no control over our future.
Life seems futile.