Life seems futile

My life is in an odd place right now.

There are extremes of joy and sadness, clouds and blue skies, and it can be hard to manage the conflict at times.

Cancer is about to take someone from me, my family, and his community, friends, and neighbours.  I hate the way cancer destroys lives.  I hate that for all the treatment we can endure there can never be a cure.  It destroys me to see this happening to family, to friends, acquaintances.  To hear about it in news bulletins, television programs.  I want earlier detection and better treatments.  I want a cure.

I want a world without cancer.

As we become older we’re more exposed to this.  Suddenly there isn’t a world of safety, there isn’t a future to be certain of, there’s just time.  Time to make the most of our lives as they are at this very moment.  Time to tell people they are loved and to forgive past mistakes.  Time to forgive yourself for your own mistakes.  Time to know that right now being there for each other is all that matters.

The future is in our hands to shape how we want to but some obstacles are greater than our determination to succeed.  We can only influence what we have control over, the rest is down to fate, to biology, to circumstance.

Being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

We can live our lives in the most healthy way possible but still have no control over our future.

Life seems futile.


9 comments on “Life seems futile”
  1. Invisibly Me says:

    I’m so sorry, and for the person you mention. A world without cancer would certainly be a far better world, but as you say, nothing is known and despite best efforts various things can get in the way, whether that’s from violence, other health conditions, an accident, even vicious weather. It’s hard to balance the two extremes, to live life and make the most of time, and knowing the bittersweet brutality of life is right around the corner. Sending hugs to you, Karen xxxx

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    1. Karen says:

      Thanks Caz, your words mean so much to me. My dad passed away this evening. He’s at peace now.


      1. Invisibly Me says:

        Oh Karen, I am truly so, so sorry. I can’t begin to imagine losing my dad, so my heart aches for you and your family. I’ll be thinking of you. 🌷

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  2. Bryan Fagan says:

    In an odd sort of way losing a loved one to cancer forced me to grow up. Funny how things are and who we become. Peace and a heavy heart sent your way.


    1. Karen says:

      Having cancer myself has made me rethink my life and priorities, It gives a new understanding and approach.
      Thanks for reading and responding 🙂


  3. Very well expressed but buddy life isn’t futile!
    Life is about crossing this river full of crocodiles and even if you get a scratches or two it doesn’t matter, just try your best to be satisfied and to love all!
    Life will become meaningful! 😃👍

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    1. Karen says:

      Aw thank you for your lovely message, it’s really made me smile. I know life’s not futile, I just get dragged down with fear sometimes, and this morning was one of those times.

      I’m good, I’m living a better life now than before my cancer diagnosis. Just got to keep dodging those crocodiles! 😀

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      1. That’s the spirit Karen!!!😊

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  4. ashleyleia says:

    It’s true, there’s so much we don’t have control over. I guess all we can do is try to be grateful for what each day gives us.

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