I remember writing the poem I am the Stars in the Sky, I was driving to the pool and all these phrases were churning round my mind. It was a clear spring morning and I’m guessing I must have had a spirit of optimism that day. About a month later I submitted two of my poems for the anthology Further Within Darkness & Light, when they were accepted with great enthusiasm from the editor I began thinking that maybe one day I would have my own book of poetry published and that the title would be I am the Stars in the Sky.
When I began pulling together poems for my first book, with the title already in mind, I was disappointed that the themes of the poetry didn’t fit with the book title. Instead of stressing over it and completely changing everything that I’d already done, I simply removed I am the Stars from the book and assigned Kaleidoscopic Beauty as the title poem. Another great title and one which totally fits the writing inside.
With the publication of Kaleidoscopic Beauty I was confident that my second book would be ready for November and that it would have the title that I’d dreamed of, so I announced this at the end of that book.
I am the Stars in the Sky takes the reader on an emotional journey themed on fear, despair, isolation, change, peace and hope. The poem Empty Pages is printed before these themes/chapters and acts as an introduction to my writing, I knew it had to be the first poem in the book from the moment I wrote it. It tells the reader that my poetry is born from emotion and that the empty pages are fulfilling their destiny in becoming poems.
The first theme, fear, begins with the poem One Cell which was the root of my current mental health problems. This one cell within my body that mutated and grew, giving me a cancer diagnosis and leading to a four year (so far) battle with depression and PTSD. The theme of despair is a documentation of the deep lows of mental illness, while isolation describes feelings of being alone, of not being understood, of not fitting, and thoughts that no one really cares anyway.
The book then takes on a more positive angle, through change and the idea that nothing is permanent and that things will get better and onto peace (acceptance) and hope (inspiration). I am the Stars in the Sky is the last poem in the book and leaves the reader with a powerful message of hope and inspiration, in a similar way to I Rise in my first book.
I am beyond happy that I will be the published author of two collections of poetry and I’m certain that there will be more but for now I’m going to take some time to soak up this huge achievement before deciding on what’s next.
Love to all
BTW I recommend reading the linked post I Rise as well as an awesome poem, it’s an awesome post!