Yesterday I was in a funk. I hardly left the house all day except going for a short walk at lunchtime and doing the school pickup in the afternoon. I didn’t see anyone to speak to while I was out, the kids conversation goes as far as ‘can I go on the xbox?’ and hubby was in work all day and at a Scouting Exec meeting all evening.
I was fed up of my own company, fed up of my leg being sore, fed up of my stupid healthy eating plan, fed up of my hands and feet always being cold, fed up of feeling fat and not being able to run, fed up of pointless facebook posts, fed up of boring tv, fed up of existing in a directionless fog, just fed up really…
So, I decided to do something about the inertia that I felt smothering my zest for life. I decided to write a plan. I decided this at 11pm because it couldn’t wait until the next day. And on this plan I wrote a handful of things that I wanted to achieve this week,
The first four items were all poetry related (top secret author plans):
- to work on ‘poem 1’
- to work on ‘poem 2’
- to work on ‘book 3’
- to work on ‘book 4’
Then I decided to add some non-poetry ideas:
- to finish the book I was reading
- to finish knitting the sleeve of my jumper
- to work through two chapters of the life coach book
- to meal plan for the rest of the week
Today started well, I stayed in bed and read for almost two hours to finish my book, I had a delicious but healthy breakfast which felt so indulgent compared to muesli (peanut butter and mashed banana on toast), I went to the gym, I worked through one chapter of the life coach book and meal planned for the week. That’s two and a half items completed.
Moving on, as this post was supposed to be about gratitude rather than an insight into my thrilling day(!), I was pleased to feel that I was achieving something concrete. This led to me thinking about gratitude and how even though there’s stuff in my life that’s a bit restrictive right now, I actually have lots that I can appreciate and be grateful for.
Enough of the words, time for some pictures
(with accompanying commentary).